heartbreak

Alright- in the typical 'teenage girl' style- I'm writing about my relationship issues. i am madly inlove with this man, and honestly i thought he loved me too. but for some reason our "relationship" seems to be constantly on the rocks. we dated for a total of 3ish months- most of it at long distance. but when we were together everything was amazing. when he broke up with me i was so torn up- i thought i was going to go crazy. but i got over it, then he came home for leave again and we got together and it was as if everything was normal again. but now he has 'officially' called it off again...and i have this voice in my head going 'he'll come back- they always do, he always has'. but i'm scared he wont- and then i have no idea what i'd do if he did. i wish things like this were simple. i just can't keep going through this. i love him soo sooooo much that it hurts to even imagine a future without him. but i know i need to let go- i'm just not sure if i can. its just so stupid and difficult...