i feel silly

now- i'm aware that you should never date people you work with- and i will be honest and say that i've made that mistake a few too many times. but there was this one guy at work that i had a crush on- we flirted a lot and it was kinda cool. i was considering dating him, i thought maybe it'd work better between me and him than it had any of the other guys i'd dated from work. well i didn't even get to see- he has just recently started dating another girl from our work- i'm not devastated or anything, but i am jealous. though honestly i have no idea why i'm jealous- its not like i had any claim to him or anything, i think i feel this way because now i can't flirt with him or anything. its kinda a wierd feeling being around him cuz i don't want to make things complicated at work- i hate this feeling.

not to mention there is a lot of other drama going on at my work. one of the girls i've worked with and i have become very close lately because of another girl we work with. i'll call my friend "M" and the other girl "W". now M and i were friends since she started working with me, although we were never really that close. well shortly after M started working with me she got one of her friends, W, a job at our work also. things went well until recently- W has begun being a two faced meanie to us. she goes behind our backs and sleeps with the men we like and tells lies about M, etc etc. Now W really hasn't done anything to me directly except sleep with an ex that she knew i still have feelings for. but i have to blame my ex and W- because it takes two to tango. but other than that i really have no reason to hate W- except that i just hate her. and i'm not one to hate. but i do, i hate W. i feel bad for M because she lost W after a 12 year friendship. and now i'm 'losing' M because she's going to transfer to another store in our company. i don't want her to go but i understand the issue- i've been there before.  but again- i feel silly for hating W...