So- i've been watching one of my favorite movies- Sex and the City (two), and the worse thing popped into my head. I look at Carrie and Big and i think "i want that" in a way- i mean i want to be with someone who i love... and then i look at Carrie closely and realize "so THATS what he wants", the ex (the one i'm still CRAZY about) wants a girl who can show off. someone who dresses up, acts like a lady, and has a nice body. so i'm sitting here- working on homework, eating sunflower seeds, rolos and drinking water, trying to figure out what to do to lose weight. lol...and directly across from me is my families' elipticle.... what to do, what to do? lol...
i'm just not driven enough to do it, i'm already taking Zumba classes at college- that should be enough right? but apparently not, i can't seem to lose the weight i want to lose. i mean i'm not fat but i'm not as skinny or built as i used to be...where the heck did i go wrong!?
i need to figure out what to do- but in my mind all i want is to look good and be happy.
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